My family likes to tell the story of when I was younger, when asked what I wanted to be when I grew up, I said "The woman in the board room, dressed in a suit, with a briefcase." Not sure what I was envisioning I would be doing, but I think I wanted to feel powerful, important and in charge.
Now here I am, in that exact place. I sat in a board room earlier this week, I wear high heels (like a real adult!) and I spend a lot of my day in a sunny office, doing exactly the work that I thought I would do.
There are days I question this life. I’m a mom now, should I be with my kids? Should I be doing something else? Am I where God wants me to be? But in those moments when I worry, I choose to listen to the smaller me, manifesting a life she didn’t know much about. I choose to listen to younger me, and lean in to that dream she had. Even if that dream is only for a season. I choose to be intentional with time, people and things. It helps me thru the panic moments of wondering if I’m being a good enough mom by working, a good enough wife by chasing dreams and a good enough me by sacrificing.
I want to give that younger me a hug and say “even though you don’t know what it looks like now, your intuition about growing up and being that woman in the room and at the table, it is incredibly cool.”
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